I’ve spent so much time trying to control my life. I thought it meant I was strong but I was just afraid. I dug out remains from the rubble of the Towers. For two weeks, I was methodical. A scientist. I did what was asked of me, I did my job. I never shed a tear. I was proud of that. All these years, I never let myself feel it.
(Source: becauseyoulovemebb, via cupofwilson)